On goals and other motivations


It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and just been bored. I’ve become very good at distracting myself at home. On workdays, it’s a mix of scheduled meetings, lunch, walking Samson, a bit of afternoon confusion, late afternoon wind downs and eventually getting to a weekday night. The weekday nights are either cooking at home or ordering from a select few restaurants.

I have some opinions, some strong and some weak opinions but lately I’ve been focusing on how these make my goal setting come into play. I believe there’s a lot of power to the systematic or automatic processes we set up like walking my dog at noon everyday, it’s great for him to get out and good for me to get away from the always connected world of work. My goals have become less clear recently. I don’t know what I want to do long term or what to work on. I’ve become sort of complacent but not sure with what.

The photo included in this post is the first photo I’ve taken in a long time, on my Canon 6D that I bought 3 years ago. The camera has been neglected, my interest in photography has waned to a point where I look at beautiful photos and can see the effort someone went through to take them but I think the first half of the 2010s jaded me in some bad way I am fighting away now. Photos went from interesting events and moments to an arduous process of copying from camera to computer to the internet. They lost their magic for me.

Days like today make me realize that I’m spending a lot of time consuming information from around me but not really producing anything valuable.